Wednesday, March 19, 2014

What The Douche Should I Call This Entry?

Hey inter webs people that I somehow find comfort in, whether I Know you or not! 
How are you, how have you been, have you been losing weight, your skin is glowing, I have missed you... Etc... You get the drift, gotta get the " I care how you are" out of the way so I can talk about myself. 
Phew, now that THAT part is over...
I'm glad you're doing well! There. I was even genuine. Lol
Ok, back to me-
This has been one of the strangest 2 weeks of my life. 
That's mainly why there has been a lack of updates, saved it all for one big in your face post! 
You ready, cuz I'm probably not. 
Well, here it goes.
Work- work is great, I love it and I'm settling in very well. 
I'm so happy to finally have found a job in Hawaii that I didn't hate and feel like was sucking my soul- 
That's because I went back to the fashion industry...
Why did I ever stray away? It was to try and expand my horizons, and boy did I ever! 
And I fucking hated it! 
If you know your strengths, it shows great courage to try and improve upon your weaknesses.
I did that, on many levels and went right back to my strenghths.
Expanding your horizons and working on certain aspects of yourself is a natural change anyways, it's human nature to easily become bored with familiar surroundings. 
We don't even realize it as it happens, but we change and grow and that is called mature evolution and growing up. Ofcourse I'm not the same as I was when I was 22, so why would I be the same as I was six months ago? Especially given my circumstances and complete life change.
But I'm definitely back in the swing of things and finally finding a job that makes me happy and pays the bills was a great step in the right direction.
I also stepped out of the box, and went on a date finally.
Stella got her groove back.
He was really nice, and very passionate, and very into me.
Our date lasted 3 days! Not kidding, met him the day before our first date, and it just sort of bled into a few days. 
I like him too, he is working on his work Visa situation right now and is technically missing. 
Literally, we stopped talking mid sentence as he was changing his job situation, and no one including his old boss knows where he is and his phone along with all his roommates have Ben disconnected.
Basically, I think he got deported.
I hadly know him, but feel intensely connected to him as he was the first date I've gone on since my Husband so ofcourse I'm gonna be slightly clingy.
Especially when you make plans with me, then have a meeting with your boss, then go completely missing for well over a week. 
It is what it is, he doesn't owe me anything but I just want to make sure he is ok.
Well, maybe one day our paths will cross again, but I hope it's sooner than later. 
Even if we don't end up hanging out again, I do thank him for showing me that there is so much more I have to live for since my world " went crashing down" (I'm not a drama queen or anything)
So, broke my dry spell, took my mind off of all the super duper serious adult stuff I have to deal with alone now, lived a little.
Last week, my co-workers and I went out for staff morale and it was a blast, I also attended one of my old friends beach side fire pit birthday, and it was awesome! 
Always good to see old friends, or at least friends you haven't seen for awhile and catch up.
Reminds me I have more than just a few people in my corner, and people I can trust to hold down my secrets.
I can't tell you how many people I've had to cut out of my life because of their negative energy and overall demeanor. 
I don't play that shit anymore. Ever again. 
I'm too old and have been done wrong way too many times to deal with backstabbers.
My EX and I are finally getting along in a totally different way now and I'm not letting anyone jeopardize that, especially when they are just spreading he said she said lies that I am forced to clear up so I stop getting hate mail.
How are you going to hate me when you haven't even seen me in 4 months over some dumb shit? 
Let's all just stop wasting our time, energy and be positive.
Fucking backstabbers stirring up drama, man... 
Especially since they are always the last one you'd expect it from! 
But hey, having mutual friends between you and Exes just doesn't work. 
They play both sides of the field and I am still trying to preserve and restore my friendships with my Ex and my old roomie, I don't need some stupid bitch running around talking about me, trying to cause drama and showing them my fucking Facebook all the while smiling in my face? 
Nah, homey, we don't get down like that. 
I lost a friend that I truly cared for for this exact reason, and she was the only one who fought to actually explain herself and her actions. 
She is guilty of the entire list of things that are making my life unnecessarily drama filled and I couldn't have that, but I do miss her before this all went down. 
We are going to meet tonight for the first time in months, and I'm going in guns a blazing. 
She got some 'splaining to do, and if it's not what I want to hear then this will be good closure for us.
Hopefully, it goes another way. I do not want any enemies, and am working very hard to eliminate them from my life and squash any beefs that aren't worth it. 
There is no reason for anyone in my life to hate me, and same goes for me. 
I unfortunately did not get the apartment I wanted and was hoping for, as I was going to see it they literally finished signing a lease with someone else. That's ok, it wasn't meant to be. 
It wasn't on the nice lady who interviewed me for the place, the management company stepped in. 
And I wasn't prepared to write a check for the entire amount yet, and hadn't actually seen the place yet. 
But, I'll find something.
My roommates basically gave me one more month ( thank god they understand) and that will be good for us, I can see the signs that I am becoming a burden to them and in their way too often and that's the last thing I want. So- gotta set a fire under my ass and find living quarters immediately!
My last awesome adventure was meeting my new Wifey- Jennifer. 
We met at my store, hit it off and decided to hang out. 
That turned into me staying all cozy up in her suite at the Marriott and hitting up all the gorgeous beaches I never quite have time to get to. 
It was awesome, and great to make a friend for life. 
Unfortunately, she her Vacation ended and she had to leave, but we will remain pen pals.
She is back in Texas now, and I am here with Mementos including and not limited to the Philips Hue Light Strips that I've always wanted and a gorgeous Koa engagement ring! Love it!
The more people from Texas I meet, the more I seriously entertain the idea of moving there.
I know, I know, me in Texas? 
But don't ever believe the hype- make your own decisions.
Try saying yes at least once a day, especially to situations you normally wouldn't. 
It will change your life- trust me.
This has been the best two weeks I've had in a long time.
So, what's my next adventure? 
I'll get back to you on that one. 

Gotta go shake my mad hatter ass and make some Skrilla! 

Love,
K.J. Dominick's 

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