What The Douche Should I Call This Entry?

Hey inter webs people that I somehow find comfort in, whether I Know you or not! 

How are you, how have you been, have you been losing weight, your skin is glowing, I have missed you... Etc... You get the drift, gotta get the " I care how you are" out of the way so I can talk about myself. 

Phew, now that THAT part is over...

I'm glad you're doing well! There. I was even genuine. Lol

Ok, back to me-

This has been one of the strangest 2 weeks of my life. 

That's mainly why there has been a lack of updates, saved it all for one big in your face post! 

You ready, cuz I'm probably not. 

Well, here it goes.

Work- work is great, I love it and I'm settling in very well. 

I'm so happy to finally have found a job in Hawaii that I didn't hate and feel like was sucking my soul- 

That's because I went back to the fashion industry...

Why did I ever stray away? It was to try and expand my horizons, and boy did I ever! 

And I fucking hated it! 

If you know your strengths, it shows great courage to try and improve upon your weaknesses.

I did that, on many levels and went right back to my strenghths.

Expanding your horizons and working on certain aspects of yourself is a natural change anyways, it's human nature to easily become bored with familiar surroundings. 

We don't even realize it as it happens, but we change and grow and that is called mature evolution and growing up. Ofcourse I'm not the same as I was when I was 22, so why would I be the same as I was six months ago? Especially given my circumstances and complete life change.

But I'm definitely back in the swing of things and finally finding a job that makes me happy and pays the bills was a great step in the right direction.

I also stepped out of the box, and went on a date finally.

Stella got her groove back.

He was really nice, and very passionate, and very into me.

Our date lasted 3 days! Not kidding, met him the day before our first date, and it just sort of bled into a few days. 

I like him too, he is working on his work Visa situation right now and is technically missing. 

Literally, we stopped talking mid sentence as he was changing his job situation, and no one including his old boss knows where he is and his phone along with all his roommates have Ben disconnected.

Basically, I think he got deported.

I hadly know him, but feel intensely connected to him as he was the first date I've gone on since my Husband so ofcourse I'm gonna be slightly clingy.

Especially when you make plans with me, then have a meeting with your boss, then go completely missing for well over a week. 

It is what it is, he doesn't owe me anything but I just want to make sure he is ok.

Well, maybe one day our paths will cross again, but I hope it's sooner than later. 

Even if we don't end up hanging out again, I do thank him for showing me that there is so much more I have to live for since my world " went crashing down" (I'm not a drama queen or anything)

So, broke my dry spell, took my mind off of all the super duper serious adult stuff I have to deal with alone now, lived a little.

Last week, my co-workers and I went out for staff morale and it was a blast, I also attended one of my old friends beach side fire pit birthday, and it was awesome! 

Always good to see old friends, or at least friends you haven't seen for awhile and catch up.

Reminds me I have more than just a few people in my corner, and people I can trust to hold down my secrets.

I can't tell you how many people I've had to cut out of my life because of their negative energy and overall demeanor. 

I don't play that shit anymore. Ever again. 

I'm too old and have been done wrong way too many times to deal with backstabbers.

My EX and I are finally getting along in a totally different way now and I'm not letting anyone jeopardize that, especially when they are just spreading he said she said lies that I am forced to clear up so I stop getting hate mail.

How are you going to hate me when you haven't even seen me in 4 months over some dumb shit? 

Let's all just stop wasting our time, energy and be positive.

Fucking backstabbers stirring up drama, man... 

Especially since they are always the last one you'd expect it from! 

But hey, having mutual friends between you and Exes just doesn't work. 

They play both sides of the field and I am still trying to preserve and restore my friendships with my Ex and my old roomie, I don't need some stupid bitch running around talking about me, trying to cause drama and showing them my fucking Facebook all the while smiling in my face? 

Nah, homey, we don't get down like that. 

I lost a friend that I truly cared for for this exact reason, and she was the only one who fought to actually explain herself and her actions. 

She is guilty of the entire list of things that are making my life unnecessarily drama filled and I couldn't have that, but I do miss her before this all went down. 

We are going to meet tonight for the first time in months, and I'm going in guns a blazing. 

She got some 'splaining to do, and if it's not what I want to hear then this will be good closure for us.

Hopefully, it goes another way. I do not want any enemies, and am working very hard to eliminate them from my life and squash any beefs that aren't worth it. 

There is no reason for anyone in my life to hate me, and same goes for me. 

I unfortunately did not get the apartment I wanted and was hoping for, as I was going to see it they literally finished signing a lease with someone else. That's ok, it wasn't meant to be. 

It wasn't on the nice lady who interviewed me for the place, the management company stepped in. 

And I wasn't prepared to write a check for the entire amount yet, and hadn't actually seen the place yet. 

But, I'll find something.

My roommates basically gave me one more month ( thank god they understand) and that will be good for us, I can see the signs that I am becoming a burden to them and in their way too often and that's the last thing I want. So- gotta set a fire under my ass and find living quarters immediately!

My last awesome adventure was meeting my new Wifey- Jennifer. 

We met at my store, hit it off and decided to hang out. 

That turned into me staying all cozy up in her suite at the Marriott and hitting up all the gorgeous beaches I never quite have time to get to. 

It was awesome, and great to make a friend for life. 

Unfortunately, she her Vacation ended and she had to leave, but we will remain pen pals.

She is back in Texas now, and I am here with Mementos including and not limited to the Philips Hue Light Strips that I've always wanted and a gorgeous Koa engagement ring! Love it!

The more people from Texas I meet, the more I seriously entertain the idea of moving there.

I know, I know, me in Texas? 

But don't ever believe the hype- make your own decisions.

Try saying yes at least once a day, especially to situations you normally wouldn't. 

It will change your life- trust me.

This has been the best two weeks I've had in a long time.

So, what's my next adventure? 

I'll get back to you on that one. 

Gotta go shake my mad hatter ass and make some Skrilla! 

Love,

K.J. Dominick's 

Filling The Void

Transitional states. 

They happen to all of us and they are mad awkward.

You are lost, not sure of your next move, and usually on your own.

In my case, this transition is Divorce and an entire life 180.

It is creating me again, and ruining me, all at the same time. 

I'm trying my best to stay positive and it is going very well, even in my sober state. 

Ok, yes, I have breakdowns and moments of depression, but I am overall happy and working hard.

I also have a dream apartment lined up and pray to GOD that I can get it. 

It would be fabulous and help me feel better about my independence and future.

However, still working on the financial kinks that all Divorces end in.

The good thing is we are talking regularly and actually getting together.

I'll take what I can at this point, I'd rather be his friend again than nothing and always feeling insecure.

My major blow of the week is that he has admitted that his health is very poor, almost to a life threatening point ( waiting on results and what next step we have to take)

I'm more worried than ever, and wish I knew how to help him, but he seems to be doing fine without me ( even though that is a mask we both wear very well)

He knows I miss him and how I feel about him, I know he cares for me.

A large part of me knows I am foolishly holding onto something that had fizzled a long time ago and we chose to do nothing to fix it, but I am and always be in love with him ( or at least love him) and the other part of me wonders whether we can reignite the spark that we lost. 

Another part of me wonders if I even want to. 

I don't know.

I don't write these things to actually solve my problems, I write to vent and update y'all on my life. 

And life is good. Challenging, but isn't it always no matter where you are or what situation you are in? 

Yes. Yes it is. 

God will test you beyond your wildest dreams.

It's us that come out on top who win this foolish game called life.

AND- I'm done!

On a side note-

Loving the new Pharrell, Beck and Ashanti albums...

Until next time,

K.J. Dominick's 

Enjoy The Show

Hey guys. 

How y'all feeling today? I'm great, thanks for asking. 

Super, to be exact! 

Had a good rest last night, but I'm still a bit sleepy.

Maybe because it's dreary.

Maybe because I had a little headache this morning, so I took a puff of the diggetty.

It's a nice chilly day, perfect for cuddling. 

Don't get me wrong, it's gorgeous out, but I'd rather be in bed and I never feel that way.

I love working at my new job, I just don't love the commute some days, usually it's awesome and I get my quality headphone therapy time. 

Unfortunately, I'm working today and cannot afford that luxury. 

It's ok, my lovely bed and Chad Bear will be waiting for me when I get home. 

They promised. 

Also, I get to sit at my favorite coffee spot that has Wi-Fi, let's me smoke my E-Cig and is superbly designed to both invite the customer as well as make them feel comfortable. 

I write the best of my work here, with the smell of freshly ground Espresso and Burnt Bagels that they should offer to me and not just throw away. 

Well, tonight will breeze by AND- I'm off tomorrow with no prior commitments so I can have the best day ever! 

And that could mean anything, like going to a movie, or for a long walk or just nothing. 

I am attending my friends play tomorrow night. 

But today, I can't shake the "I wanna be alone and sleep all day"...

No, instead of laying in bed and watching Brooklyn Nine-Nine or a Bad Girls Club Marathon I'm out, in the world. 

Looking cute as a motherfucker ( they are so cute, motherfuckers that is)

Most people don't associate the word Motherfucker with cuteness, I do. Always have.

I think both Motherfucker and Cute were my first words. 

Says a lot, says a lot...

So, working. I love my job, and I'm good at it, and my Co-Workers are awesome. 

Most of them. Kidding, but not really...

I mean, that's true of all places you work at, we all have our favorites, especially as Managers.

The trick to being a good Manager is not letting it show. 

There are other tricks to being a good Manager, but that wasn't really my point.

Yet again, what was my freaking point?!!

Who writes this BlogOir and why? He should be put down...

I realize that about myself, that I should've been killed at birth- Character Flaw, really...

I also realize many others things too, that don't just have to do with me directly. 

I just prefer the ones that do. I like me, in certain lighting. 

No, I actually love me- part of my self hating/loving conundrum. 

So, how do you, my dear readers, fell about the direction and lack thereof of my BlogOir? 

Are there any subjects you'd like me to touch on? 

Has it become too PG-13 ( only because I cut one cuss word out of the script for the Academy) 

Would you like me touch on deep dark and personal things, or stay writing nonsense, that is so much more than actual nonsense? 

I can. Oh trust me, I can go "there"

If you wanted.

I mean- I go "there" all the fucking time! 

I live "there"- I bought a Condo "there", okay? 

Can I get a big old Gay Queen OKAY?

So, this BlogOir was a way for me to vent, inform and edumacate y'all on things I like ( not selfish or self involved AT all) and not really to expose things about myself that u dreamed unnecessary.

I like to write reviews, and bizarre essays, and write all the while thinking I'm hilarious and you feel the same way, even though that I'd probably far from the truth. 

It wasn't really for the uncomfortable things, but it can be, I got a lot of baggage. 

Give me some feedback. 

Thank you.

Well, I usually steal clear of all things riske now because I don't want to reveal them. 

There, truthiness at it's finest- that's what I have to offer ( also) is a spoonful of truthiness. 

Drink it or take the Blue Pill, whatever. I don't live your life, I live mine.

And mine wants to be in bed, cuddling with Chad. 

Oh, and remember, even if you can't smell yourself, everyone else can! 

Hippy.

Love,

K.J. Dominick's 

On Top Of The World Like Brandy and Ma$e

Hey y'all! 

Well, I lost one of my best blog entries somehow, didn't want to publish it quite yet cuz I like to let them sit for awhile and then when I re read them I can edit them with a different perspective. 

Usually that works, not when I need it to the most, but usually. 

Oh well, it was cute but I'm over it. 

And I can recreate it, I mean they are my words. 

The main thing to remember is that it was a super happy post.

When I was writing it, I was on the way to meet with my EX face to face for the first time since WWWE ( that's World War We for those who don't get it, I know I didn't) I'm all about clarity.

Well, that day I looked and felt great but needed to go see my Convenient Mart Crushes for an Ego boost. Now, there is a cute little store a few blocks from where I stay and every time it go in there the middle aged Korean woman call me things like Mr. Handsome, Babyface and they love me. I guess because I'm nice and smile at them, but they LOVE me! 

Like, a lot. One of them even dances when I walk in. 

It very well might be because they always catch me when im wearing my cutest outfits and accessories, or just my million dollar smile ( yet again, kidding, I'm not that conceited)

Talk about a great way to start your stride! They totally get business from me even when I don't need smokes ( I quit, but still smoke every once in awhile) or I'm totally geeking from too much caffeine but I still buy another Red Bull just to basically buy their compliments. 

I thought that they maybe used this to get regulars, but have never seen them speak to anyone in that fashion before. So it's gotta be just for me! 

And I will keep telling myself that! 

I am the King of Sexiness and available at your local Convenient Mart.

The meeting with the EX went well, left a lot unresolved but still I found comfort in knowing he is ok, and I am ok, and we are at least on ok terms. Ok. 

Not going to go into it too much into it because it was what it is, but I'm sure there will be an update in the future.

Other than that, life has been really good. 

I bought a bed ( finally I'm not sleeping on couches that I don't fit on and Futons that I also don't fit on because I am 6'1" like my favorite Liz Phair song), a cute bedspread and a new lamp that works oh so well with my Hue lights... And a Zombie Teddy bear named Chad.

As you can tell, I'm in love with Chad, my lights and my new bed. 

In love to almost an unhealthy state. 

Hey- if it makes you happy, it can't be that bad ( as long as it's not drugs, then it can be that bad)

And life is just good, but I'm a bit bummed since most of my friends are leaving this revolving door we call home. 

That's kind of how Hawaii works, people come, they go, you build friendships and gain international friends for life but it's still sad that they are leaving you. 

Alas, it just leaves me more room to be better friends with my friends who stay and reconsider all my options for my future. 

Well, I will leave you guys to get back to life, back to reality and I will do the same myself.

Just know, there will be more.

I will be back with more words of wisdom for you, just not right now.

I'm spent. Get me a warm washcloth and hold me while I roll over.

Love you,

K.J. Dominick's 

Shenanigans! Trifling Little Shenanigans!

So today was silly. 

Just downright bizarre and my mood has definitely been reflective of that. 

I had that extra strut today, that memorable swag I so gracefully ingest each city I live in with.

Until people know me from my walk, and recognize me by it. 

It defines me, especially on days like today when it is so prominent.

I call it my butch catwalk strut.

It's really just my stride. I have long legs, and I know how to use them..

I think it might be because I got good sleep last night.

Maybe, I wasn't even trying to get out of bed today, wasn't even having it.

Probably because I downed a whole bottle of wine ( those big ole ghetto $8.79 wines)

If I had gotten up, I'd probably be hungover from it.

Eew. Now, of course when I want to go to bed there is no rest for the wicked. 

Eh, weary s the head that wears the crown.

Hope I don't quote that too much in my writing, I do in life. I'll have to go back to previous entries and have my non existent editor edit that out. Lol. 

My editor said she very much indeed does exist and that is not funny. 

We are now fighting. 

Another one on my list of fights! It never ends!!!

Alas, I will make it through this, like I have overcome all of my struggles. 

I am a survivor, I'm not gone give up.

So- 

There are many things about you that I know that you don't yet. 

That is you are Gay. 

There I said it. Now go on with your Gay self! 

Ok, you're not Gay, you just have strange repressed memories and Mommy/Daddy issues. 

We all do, it's ok. 

Hope there is something Cashmere in that walk in Closet you live in. 

Well, you know what your own personal problems and demons are, as do I. 

I'm not here to rub the, in your face I'm here to help you realize them.

Why? Cuz I've nothing else to do, and we both live for this shit anyways.

It's alright, take a deep breathe and lay back now. 

I will soothe you with my sweet breath and whispers of sweet nothings in your right ear, while I gently caress and finger fuck your left one. Oh my god, wait hold up there! Woah buddy! 

Sorry- ahem. I got side tracked. 

Where was I? 

Busy talking about nothing. 

Happy there. Wasting the internet away with my stupid ideas. 

Happily. Happily. 

K.J. Dominick's does it for the children. 

If this post made any sense to you, then you need to seek medical attention immediately. 

If not, then you have no soul.

Win win for me

Love your Children,

K.J. Dominick's 

Really. I love your kids. Keep having them! 

They are so cute when they are little which lasts for like a year and then they suck more and more each year! 

I mean I live you and that wretched snotty offspring of yours! Good work! 

Oh, it accidentally said something funny! How- cute. 

Bye. 

Sniff you jerks later 

Updating You On Me ( and we both like it)

Hey Snitches! 

What's up? How are you?

I'm good, clearly... Isn't that hat to die for? Or is it just cute because I'm modeling it? 

Oh, that's right, you can't answer me. That's ok, I'll pretend you're either great or awful, depending on who you are. 

Who are you? 

Who are you that is reading my blog so much?

I mean, don't stop, I promise to keep filling your head with semi- profound thoughts and statements, random music reviews and stories that you for some reason feel compelled to read.

It's because I'm not afraid anymore. It's just me, so all I can let down is myself.

And myself is very proud of me, and realizes I have overcome addiction all the while being homeless and being forced into a very ugly and awkwardly drawn out divorce.

And I'm surviving! And thriving! And fucking corny for writing that.

I was able to land a great job that makes me happy, and re build friendships that I had neglected.

So, since my last declaration of never seeing or contacting both The Ex and the Dog again because it caused too much stress on my life, I went one whole week without contacting him! Then, he finally contacted me, basically 7 days to the minute and acted like I had been distant. 

He knows exactly why I stopped contacting him, and I made it very clear.

Well, he said he misses me and wants to get together to talk at my Coffee spot. 

I agreed, said meeting is tomorrow. 

We will see how it goes, it will be nice to see him anyways. 

Plus, I look like really good (duh, bitch) and if anything goes wrong, I'm just gonna break a plate over his head and run. 

Always a good solution, and a power exit that makes a clear and strong statement. 

That statement is " that bitch crazy. Call the police". 

But, I'm all about lasting impressions, good or bad. Lol

Yeah, so we will see how it goes. 

Hopefully it is ok, and I don't leave upset.

I'm in a position of power now, and can't let that slip.

Plus, I plan to hype myself up with the help of Bad Girls Club...

So, enough of the serious blah blah blah

This week:

I discovered Broad City- an amazing show produced by Amy Poehler about two ridiculous girls running loose I the city, and their insane friendship, and smoking a lot of pot.

Seriously, this show is so funny and brilliant, I have watched the 4 episodes they have released so far repeatedly because every time I see it there are so many hidden gems and laughs that it's just brilliant. 

I really hope it takes off for these girls, apparently they have had a very successful Web Series before it became a show and I can only see them doing really well.

I've also been obsessed with Girls on HBO, and the new season completely redeems the second season. I also have the soundtrack that accompanies it on repeat. I love the show, because it's realistic. It's funny, it's embarrassing and it's written perfectly. All the acting is top notch and I couldn't be happier with the new direction the show is taking. 

I've been watching a lot of Archer, After Lately ( the Chelsea Lately spin-off), and taking advantage of the ITunes HD sales and adding a lot of movies to my roster, most recently a lot of Quentin Tarantino and Adam Sandler movies. 

My album picks of the month are:

1. Hologram Kizzie- Hug Life

2. Daley- Days and Nights

3. Katy B.- Little Red

4. Eliza Doolittle- In Your Hands

5. Lea Michele- Louder

6. Girls Soundtrack Volume 2

7. John Newman- Tribute

8. Toni Braxton and Babyface- Love, Marriage and Divorce

9. Broken Bells- After The Disco

10. Eric Bellinger- The Rebirth

11. 9th Wonder Presents Jamla Is The Squad- Jamla Is The Squad Vol 1

12. Sam Smith- Nirvana E.P.

13. Phantogram- Nothing But Trouble

14. Kelis- Food

15. Major Lazer- Apocalypse Soon EP

And these singles are on constant rotation:

1. Disclosure feat Mary J. Blige- F For You Remix

2. Ingrid Michaelson- Girls Chase Boys

3. Major Lazer feat Pharrell- Aerosol Can

4. Lea Michele- Cannonball

5. Daley- Blame The World

6. Sean Paul feat Iggy Azalea- Wickedest Style

7. Tinashe feat Schoolboy Q. - 2 On

8. Rapsody- Betty Shabazz and IllumiNaughty

9. Katy B.- Crying For No Reason

10. Chris Brown- Loyal Remix

11. Aloe Blacc- The Man

12. PTAF- Boss Ass Bitch

13. Mariah Carey- You're Mine (Eternal)

14. Latoya Luckett- Don't Make Me Wait

15. Celeste Buckingham- Run, Run, Run

16. August Alsina- Numb Remix

17. Hologram Kizzie feat ProbCause- NerdLove

18. Zero Dezire- It's My Birthday Remix

19. Christina Perri- I Dont Wanna Break

20. Chet Faker- No Diggity

21. Robert Glasper Experiment feat Macy Grey and Jean Grae- I Don't Even Care

22. Broken Bells- After The Disco

23. Barcelona- Background

24. Sam Smith- Money On My Mind

25. Dawn Richard- Levitate

Well, that's a pretty good catch up for you guys! 

There...

Now before I go, are there any questions other than why do I think my opinion is relevant and anybody cares? Cuz we've been over that, pay attention people

Ok. Until next time! 

- K.J. Dominick's

Decisions

Today marks the day I officially decide to turn my back and the past and look only onward ho ( towards the future for those who aren't oldish and never get my references)

This means I will stop thinking of this situation with my Ex as a break, and realize that it is a break up. 

I feel exhausted from mental abuse all week, everyday, and have been stewing it over and over again on repeat. 

I now know that this will never be repaired, he has bought tickets to move off Island with our Dog, without even consulting me. 

Those actions alone define our relationship right now, and the only thing in my life that is 100% stress is communication with him! which is basically narrowed down to short one word answers and questions involving the Dog, speaking volumes with our silence...

I needed this wake up call, because despite everything I was under the hopeful but desperate impression that we would try and work it out. Let me rephrase that- that he would make some sort of an effort, even the smallest of gestures that he still has a heart and doesn't think of me as the scum on the bottom of his shoe. We are after all married. 

I got married for a reason, not just an opportunity. I am realizing now that he was the opposite of me as far as our relationship changed. I was always a temporary experience to add to his life. Another story to tell, another reason to wallow in his own self pity. One minute he talks about how much he loves me, the next he is taking insanely and grossly inappropriate stabs at me.

One minute he wants to meet up, then he switches and acts so cruel that I don't even want to anymore  when he finally decides he is In a "good enough" place to have our first adult conversation since it all went down.  

He constantly refers to " the man he married" as if I have changed that drastically in the 8 years we have been together. I will not deny that we both changed, at points very drastically and at points in small ways. I was always there for him when he went through something. 

Not to say he wasn't there for me. He was good to me, even though he was an asshole and that eventually just got old. 

I also got old to him, and it was clear. 

We started fighting over the smallest of things, but under those things were underlying tones of love gone in the wrong direction. 

When you are married, fighting over what Genre to pass out to on Netflix is so much more than what it appears to be on the surface. 

He HATES most things I love, or at least grew to hate them with little to no exposure to them.

Sarah Silverman- He never saw her do more than the Roasts on Comedy Central and has a deep hatred for her which grows as my enthusiasm increases. 

Any Hip-Hop- when we met he kept an open mind and always gave me props with my exquisite taste in Music but then soon decided my recommendations weren't of interest to him anymore.

There are a lot of things that I never really cared for in the first place, but I always did my best to not complain or throw a fit when I didn't get my way. We can't have 2 grown men who are trying to work on a rapidly dying love story both acting like big fat ugly stupid ridiculous babies, now can we? 

Apparently we can as I have discovered as of recent we both act like babies, jerks and fuck with each other non stop like it's a science experiment.

I am convinced my ex and the roommate conspired against me for months, maybe even longer.

Why they decided to turn on me doesn't add up, yes they thought certain things about me for many reasons, all of which were incredibly awful and A  Rumour.

He gave up on me the minute I wasn't putting up with his dictatorship, I mean contribution to our relationship. 

I have been holding on because I didn't want this to end. I didn't get married to get divorced, especially when it's based on a rumor, there is no closure and I'm not even allowed to plead my case.

I truly believe with counseling this can be fixed, and have expressed that time and time again. And I am willing to do anything to make it work, but have just grown weary of trying so hard and being shot down. 

What really hurts is how I always took care of him, and carried the slack when I had to. There were years of sexual rejection, I never had a date EVER, I put up with his drug abuse and never made him feel bad about himself, and he turned right around and crushed me- I'm recovering and I wish I didn't have to give him that power but he did. 

And he abandoned me and turned his back on me. 

Till death do us part? Or just when it's convenient? 

And that speaks volumes about his character. 

But I'm not here to point out his flaws, that is not my concern anymore. 

My reasoning for venting is that after a solid week of mind fuckery at myself and the dogs expense and being blamed for everything ( yet again, 100% unable to even defend myself) he apologized for one small occurrence followed by the fact that he is moving with the dog, no matter how I feel about it and that it is truly over.

I just never saw this coming. Ever. 

I mean, we were obviously going through a bad phase when the shit hit the fan but we were always able to bounce back. 

This time, it was written that our time was over, and maybe it was for the best.

I am forced to blame noone but myself from here on out.

But, I am cutting off all communication except for emergencies and I will be stress free on that account. 

Hopefully...

Signing out, 

K.J. Dominick's