What The Douche Should I Call This Entry?

Hey inter webs people that I somehow find comfort in, whether I Know you or not! 

How are you, how have you been, have you been losing weight, your skin is glowing, I have missed you... Etc... You get the drift, gotta get the " I care how you are" out of the way so I can talk about myself. 

Phew, now that THAT part is over...

I'm glad you're doing well! There. I was even genuine. Lol

Ok, back to me-

This has been one of the strangest 2 weeks of my life. 

That's mainly why there has been a lack of updates, saved it all for one big in your face post! 

You ready, cuz I'm probably not. 

Well, here it goes.

Work- work is great, I love it and I'm settling in very well. 

I'm so happy to finally have found a job in Hawaii that I didn't hate and feel like was sucking my soul- 

That's because I went back to the fashion industry...

Why did I ever stray away? It was to try and expand my horizons, and boy did I ever! 

And I fucking hated it! 

If you know your strengths, it shows great courage to try and improve upon your weaknesses.

I did that, on many levels and went right back to my strenghths.

Expanding your horizons and working on certain aspects of yourself is a natural change anyways, it's human nature to easily become bored with familiar surroundings. 

We don't even realize it as it happens, but we change and grow and that is called mature evolution and growing up. Ofcourse I'm not the same as I was when I was 22, so why would I be the same as I was six months ago? Especially given my circumstances and complete life change.

But I'm definitely back in the swing of things and finally finding a job that makes me happy and pays the bills was a great step in the right direction.

I also stepped out of the box, and went on a date finally.

Stella got her groove back.

He was really nice, and very passionate, and very into me.

Our date lasted 3 days! Not kidding, met him the day before our first date, and it just sort of bled into a few days. 

I like him too, he is working on his work Visa situation right now and is technically missing. 

Literally, we stopped talking mid sentence as he was changing his job situation, and no one including his old boss knows where he is and his phone along with all his roommates have Ben disconnected.

Basically, I think he got deported.

I hadly know him, but feel intensely connected to him as he was the first date I've gone on since my Husband so ofcourse I'm gonna be slightly clingy.

Especially when you make plans with me, then have a meeting with your boss, then go completely missing for well over a week. 

It is what it is, he doesn't owe me anything but I just want to make sure he is ok.

Well, maybe one day our paths will cross again, but I hope it's sooner than later. 

Even if we don't end up hanging out again, I do thank him for showing me that there is so much more I have to live for since my world " went crashing down" (I'm not a drama queen or anything)

So, broke my dry spell, took my mind off of all the super duper serious adult stuff I have to deal with alone now, lived a little.

Last week, my co-workers and I went out for staff morale and it was a blast, I also attended one of my old friends beach side fire pit birthday, and it was awesome! 

Always good to see old friends, or at least friends you haven't seen for awhile and catch up.

Reminds me I have more than just a few people in my corner, and people I can trust to hold down my secrets.

I can't tell you how many people I've had to cut out of my life because of their negative energy and overall demeanor. 

I don't play that shit anymore. Ever again. 

I'm too old and have been done wrong way too many times to deal with backstabbers.

My EX and I are finally getting along in a totally different way now and I'm not letting anyone jeopardize that, especially when they are just spreading he said she said lies that I am forced to clear up so I stop getting hate mail.

How are you going to hate me when you haven't even seen me in 4 months over some dumb shit? 

Let's all just stop wasting our time, energy and be positive.

Fucking backstabbers stirring up drama, man... 

Especially since they are always the last one you'd expect it from! 

But hey, having mutual friends between you and Exes just doesn't work. 

They play both sides of the field and I am still trying to preserve and restore my friendships with my Ex and my old roomie, I don't need some stupid bitch running around talking about me, trying to cause drama and showing them my fucking Facebook all the while smiling in my face? 

Nah, homey, we don't get down like that. 

I lost a friend that I truly cared for for this exact reason, and she was the only one who fought to actually explain herself and her actions. 

She is guilty of the entire list of things that are making my life unnecessarily drama filled and I couldn't have that, but I do miss her before this all went down. 

We are going to meet tonight for the first time in months, and I'm going in guns a blazing. 

She got some 'splaining to do, and if it's not what I want to hear then this will be good closure for us.

Hopefully, it goes another way. I do not want any enemies, and am working very hard to eliminate them from my life and squash any beefs that aren't worth it. 

There is no reason for anyone in my life to hate me, and same goes for me. 

I unfortunately did not get the apartment I wanted and was hoping for, as I was going to see it they literally finished signing a lease with someone else. That's ok, it wasn't meant to be. 

It wasn't on the nice lady who interviewed me for the place, the management company stepped in. 

And I wasn't prepared to write a check for the entire amount yet, and hadn't actually seen the place yet. 

But, I'll find something.

My roommates basically gave me one more month ( thank god they understand) and that will be good for us, I can see the signs that I am becoming a burden to them and in their way too often and that's the last thing I want. So- gotta set a fire under my ass and find living quarters immediately!

My last awesome adventure was meeting my new Wifey- Jennifer. 

We met at my store, hit it off and decided to hang out. 

That turned into me staying all cozy up in her suite at the Marriott and hitting up all the gorgeous beaches I never quite have time to get to. 

It was awesome, and great to make a friend for life. 

Unfortunately, she her Vacation ended and she had to leave, but we will remain pen pals.

She is back in Texas now, and I am here with Mementos including and not limited to the Philips Hue Light Strips that I've always wanted and a gorgeous Koa engagement ring! Love it!

The more people from Texas I meet, the more I seriously entertain the idea of moving there.

I know, I know, me in Texas? 

But don't ever believe the hype- make your own decisions.

Try saying yes at least once a day, especially to situations you normally wouldn't. 

It will change your life- trust me.

This has been the best two weeks I've had in a long time.

So, what's my next adventure? 

I'll get back to you on that one. 

Gotta go shake my mad hatter ass and make some Skrilla! 

Love,

K.J. Dominick's 

Filling The Void

Transitional states. 

They happen to all of us and they are mad awkward.

You are lost, not sure of your next move, and usually on your own.

In my case, this transition is Divorce and an entire life 180.

It is creating me again, and ruining me, all at the same time. 

I'm trying my best to stay positive and it is going very well, even in my sober state. 

Ok, yes, I have breakdowns and moments of depression, but I am overall happy and working hard.

I also have a dream apartment lined up and pray to GOD that I can get it. 

It would be fabulous and help me feel better about my independence and future.

However, still working on the financial kinks that all Divorces end in.

The good thing is we are talking regularly and actually getting together.

I'll take what I can at this point, I'd rather be his friend again than nothing and always feeling insecure.

My major blow of the week is that he has admitted that his health is very poor, almost to a life threatening point ( waiting on results and what next step we have to take)

I'm more worried than ever, and wish I knew how to help him, but he seems to be doing fine without me ( even though that is a mask we both wear very well)

He knows I miss him and how I feel about him, I know he cares for me.

A large part of me knows I am foolishly holding onto something that had fizzled a long time ago and we chose to do nothing to fix it, but I am and always be in love with him ( or at least love him) and the other part of me wonders whether we can reignite the spark that we lost. 

Another part of me wonders if I even want to. 

I don't know.

I don't write these things to actually solve my problems, I write to vent and update y'all on my life. 

And life is good. Challenging, but isn't it always no matter where you are or what situation you are in? 

Yes. Yes it is. 

God will test you beyond your wildest dreams.

It's us that come out on top who win this foolish game called life.

AND- I'm done!

On a side note-

Loving the new Pharrell, Beck and Ashanti albums...

Until next time,

K.J. Dominick's 

Enjoy The Show

Hey guys. 

How y'all feeling today? I'm great, thanks for asking. 

Super, to be exact! 

Had a good rest last night, but I'm still a bit sleepy.

Maybe because it's dreary.

Maybe because I had a little headache this morning, so I took a puff of the diggetty.

It's a nice chilly day, perfect for cuddling. 

Don't get me wrong, it's gorgeous out, but I'd rather be in bed and I never feel that way.

I love working at my new job, I just don't love the commute some days, usually it's awesome and I get my quality headphone therapy time. 

Unfortunately, I'm working today and cannot afford that luxury. 

It's ok, my lovely bed and Chad Bear will be waiting for me when I get home. 

They promised. 

Also, I get to sit at my favorite coffee spot that has Wi-Fi, let's me smoke my E-Cig and is superbly designed to both invite the customer as well as make them feel comfortable. 

I write the best of my work here, with the smell of freshly ground Espresso and Burnt Bagels that they should offer to me and not just throw away. 

Well, tonight will breeze by AND- I'm off tomorrow with no prior commitments so I can have the best day ever! 

And that could mean anything, like going to a movie, or for a long walk or just nothing. 

I am attending my friends play tomorrow night. 

But today, I can't shake the "I wanna be alone and sleep all day"...

No, instead of laying in bed and watching Brooklyn Nine-Nine or a Bad Girls Club Marathon I'm out, in the world. 

Looking cute as a motherfucker ( they are so cute, motherfuckers that is)

Most people don't associate the word Motherfucker with cuteness, I do. Always have.

I think both Motherfucker and Cute were my first words. 

Says a lot, says a lot...

So, working. I love my job, and I'm good at it, and my Co-Workers are awesome. 

Most of them. Kidding, but not really...

I mean, that's true of all places you work at, we all have our favorites, especially as Managers.

The trick to being a good Manager is not letting it show. 

There are other tricks to being a good Manager, but that wasn't really my point.

Yet again, what was my freaking point?!!

Who writes this BlogOir and why? He should be put down...

I realize that about myself, that I should've been killed at birth- Character Flaw, really...

I also realize many others things too, that don't just have to do with me directly. 

I just prefer the ones that do. I like me, in certain lighting. 

No, I actually love me- part of my self hating/loving conundrum. 

So, how do you, my dear readers, fell about the direction and lack thereof of my BlogOir? 

Are there any subjects you'd like me to touch on? 

Has it become too PG-13 ( only because I cut one cuss word out of the script for the Academy) 

Would you like me touch on deep dark and personal things, or stay writing nonsense, that is so much more than actual nonsense? 

I can. Oh trust me, I can go "there"

If you wanted.

I mean- I go "there" all the fucking time! 

I live "there"- I bought a Condo "there", okay? 

Can I get a big old Gay Queen OKAY?

So, this BlogOir was a way for me to vent, inform and edumacate y'all on things I like ( not selfish or self involved AT all) and not really to expose things about myself that u dreamed unnecessary.

I like to write reviews, and bizarre essays, and write all the while thinking I'm hilarious and you feel the same way, even though that I'd probably far from the truth. 

It wasn't really for the uncomfortable things, but it can be, I got a lot of baggage. 

Give me some feedback. 

Thank you.

Well, I usually steal clear of all things riske now because I don't want to reveal them. 

There, truthiness at it's finest- that's what I have to offer ( also) is a spoonful of truthiness. 

Drink it or take the Blue Pill, whatever. I don't live your life, I live mine.

And mine wants to be in bed, cuddling with Chad. 

Oh, and remember, even if you can't smell yourself, everyone else can! 

Hippy.

Love,

K.J. Dominick's 

On Top Of The World Like Brandy and Ma$e

Hey y'all! 

Well, I lost one of my best blog entries somehow, didn't want to publish it quite yet cuz I like to let them sit for awhile and then when I re read them I can edit them with a different perspective. 

Usually that works, not when I need it to the most, but usually. 

Oh well, it was cute but I'm over it. 

And I can recreate it, I mean they are my words. 

The main thing to remember is that it was a super happy post.

When I was writing it, I was on the way to meet with my EX face to face for the first time since WWWE ( that's World War We for those who don't get it, I know I didn't) I'm all about clarity.

Well, that day I looked and felt great but needed to go see my Convenient Mart Crushes for an Ego boost. Now, there is a cute little store a few blocks from where I stay and every time it go in there the middle aged Korean woman call me things like Mr. Handsome, Babyface and they love me. I guess because I'm nice and smile at them, but they LOVE me! 

Like, a lot. One of them even dances when I walk in. 

It very well might be because they always catch me when im wearing my cutest outfits and accessories, or just my million dollar smile ( yet again, kidding, I'm not that conceited)

Talk about a great way to start your stride! They totally get business from me even when I don't need smokes ( I quit, but still smoke every once in awhile) or I'm totally geeking from too much caffeine but I still buy another Red Bull just to basically buy their compliments. 

I thought that they maybe used this to get regulars, but have never seen them speak to anyone in that fashion before. So it's gotta be just for me! 

And I will keep telling myself that! 

I am the King of Sexiness and available at your local Convenient Mart.

The meeting with the EX went well, left a lot unresolved but still I found comfort in knowing he is ok, and I am ok, and we are at least on ok terms. Ok. 

Not going to go into it too much into it because it was what it is, but I'm sure there will be an update in the future.

Other than that, life has been really good. 

I bought a bed ( finally I'm not sleeping on couches that I don't fit on and Futons that I also don't fit on because I am 6'1" like my favorite Liz Phair song), a cute bedspread and a new lamp that works oh so well with my Hue lights... And a Zombie Teddy bear named Chad.

As you can tell, I'm in love with Chad, my lights and my new bed. 

In love to almost an unhealthy state. 

Hey- if it makes you happy, it can't be that bad ( as long as it's not drugs, then it can be that bad)

And life is just good, but I'm a bit bummed since most of my friends are leaving this revolving door we call home. 

That's kind of how Hawaii works, people come, they go, you build friendships and gain international friends for life but it's still sad that they are leaving you. 

Alas, it just leaves me more room to be better friends with my friends who stay and reconsider all my options for my future. 

Well, I will leave you guys to get back to life, back to reality and I will do the same myself.

Just know, there will be more.

I will be back with more words of wisdom for you, just not right now.

I'm spent. Get me a warm washcloth and hold me while I roll over.

Love you,

K.J. Dominick's 

Shenanigans! Trifling Little Shenanigans!

So today was silly. 

Just downright bizarre and my mood has definitely been reflective of that. 

I had that extra strut today, that memorable swag I so gracefully ingest each city I live in with.

Until people know me from my walk, and recognize me by it. 

It defines me, especially on days like today when it is so prominent.

I call it my butch catwalk strut.

It's really just my stride. I have long legs, and I know how to use them..

I think it might be because I got good sleep last night.

Maybe, I wasn't even trying to get out of bed today, wasn't even having it.

Probably because I downed a whole bottle of wine ( those big ole ghetto $8.79 wines)

If I had gotten up, I'd probably be hungover from it.

Eew. Now, of course when I want to go to bed there is no rest for the wicked. 

Eh, weary s the head that wears the crown.

Hope I don't quote that too much in my writing, I do in life. I'll have to go back to previous entries and have my non existent editor edit that out. Lol. 

My editor said she very much indeed does exist and that is not funny. 

We are now fighting. 

Another one on my list of fights! It never ends!!!

Alas, I will make it through this, like I have overcome all of my struggles. 

I am a survivor, I'm not gone give up.

So- 

There are many things about you that I know that you don't yet. 

That is you are Gay. 

There I said it. Now go on with your Gay self! 

Ok, you're not Gay, you just have strange repressed memories and Mommy/Daddy issues. 

We all do, it's ok. 

Hope there is something Cashmere in that walk in Closet you live in. 

Well, you know what your own personal problems and demons are, as do I. 

I'm not here to rub the, in your face I'm here to help you realize them.

Why? Cuz I've nothing else to do, and we both live for this shit anyways.

It's alright, take a deep breathe and lay back now. 

I will soothe you with my sweet breath and whispers of sweet nothings in your right ear, while I gently caress and finger fuck your left one. Oh my god, wait hold up there! Woah buddy! 

Sorry- ahem. I got side tracked. 

Where was I? 

Busy talking about nothing. 

Happy there. Wasting the internet away with my stupid ideas. 

Happily. Happily. 

K.J. Dominick's does it for the children. 

If this post made any sense to you, then you need to seek medical attention immediately. 

If not, then you have no soul.

Win win for me

Love your Children,

K.J. Dominick's 

Really. I love your kids. Keep having them! 

They are so cute when they are little which lasts for like a year and then they suck more and more each year! 

I mean I live you and that wretched snotty offspring of yours! Good work! 

Oh, it accidentally said something funny! How- cute. 

Bye. 

Sniff you jerks later 

Updating You On Me ( and we both like it)

Hey Snitches! 

What's up? How are you?

I'm good, clearly... Isn't that hat to die for? Or is it just cute because I'm modeling it? 

Oh, that's right, you can't answer me. That's ok, I'll pretend you're either great or awful, depending on who you are. 

Who are you? 

Who are you that is reading my blog so much?

I mean, don't stop, I promise to keep filling your head with semi- profound thoughts and statements, random music reviews and stories that you for some reason feel compelled to read.

It's because I'm not afraid anymore. It's just me, so all I can let down is myself.

And myself is very proud of me, and realizes I have overcome addiction all the while being homeless and being forced into a very ugly and awkwardly drawn out divorce.

And I'm surviving! And thriving! And fucking corny for writing that.

I was able to land a great job that makes me happy, and re build friendships that I had neglected.

So, since my last declaration of never seeing or contacting both The Ex and the Dog again because it caused too much stress on my life, I went one whole week without contacting him! Then, he finally contacted me, basically 7 days to the minute and acted like I had been distant. 

He knows exactly why I stopped contacting him, and I made it very clear.

Well, he said he misses me and wants to get together to talk at my Coffee spot. 

I agreed, said meeting is tomorrow. 

We will see how it goes, it will be nice to see him anyways. 

Plus, I look like really good (duh, bitch) and if anything goes wrong, I'm just gonna break a plate over his head and run. 

Always a good solution, and a power exit that makes a clear and strong statement. 

That statement is " that bitch crazy. Call the police". 

But, I'm all about lasting impressions, good or bad. Lol

Yeah, so we will see how it goes. 

Hopefully it is ok, and I don't leave upset.

I'm in a position of power now, and can't let that slip.

Plus, I plan to hype myself up with the help of Bad Girls Club...

So, enough of the serious blah blah blah

This week:

I discovered Broad City- an amazing show produced by Amy Poehler about two ridiculous girls running loose I the city, and their insane friendship, and smoking a lot of pot.

Seriously, this show is so funny and brilliant, I have watched the 4 episodes they have released so far repeatedly because every time I see it there are so many hidden gems and laughs that it's just brilliant. 

I really hope it takes off for these girls, apparently they have had a very successful Web Series before it became a show and I can only see them doing really well.

I've also been obsessed with Girls on HBO, and the new season completely redeems the second season. I also have the soundtrack that accompanies it on repeat. I love the show, because it's realistic. It's funny, it's embarrassing and it's written perfectly. All the acting is top notch and I couldn't be happier with the new direction the show is taking. 

I've been watching a lot of Archer, After Lately ( the Chelsea Lately spin-off), and taking advantage of the ITunes HD sales and adding a lot of movies to my roster, most recently a lot of Quentin Tarantino and Adam Sandler movies. 

My album picks of the month are:

1. Hologram Kizzie- Hug Life

2. Daley- Days and Nights

3. Katy B.- Little Red

4. Eliza Doolittle- In Your Hands

5. Lea Michele- Louder

6. Girls Soundtrack Volume 2

7. John Newman- Tribute

8. Toni Braxton and Babyface- Love, Marriage and Divorce

9. Broken Bells- After The Disco

10. Eric Bellinger- The Rebirth

11. 9th Wonder Presents Jamla Is The Squad- Jamla Is The Squad Vol 1

12. Sam Smith- Nirvana E.P.

13. Phantogram- Nothing But Trouble

14. Kelis- Food

15. Major Lazer- Apocalypse Soon EP

And these singles are on constant rotation:

1. Disclosure feat Mary J. Blige- F For You Remix

2. Ingrid Michaelson- Girls Chase Boys

3. Major Lazer feat Pharrell- Aerosol Can

4. Lea Michele- Cannonball

5. Daley- Blame The World

6. Sean Paul feat Iggy Azalea- Wickedest Style

7. Tinashe feat Schoolboy Q. - 2 On

8. Rapsody- Betty Shabazz and IllumiNaughty

9. Katy B.- Crying For No Reason

10. Chris Brown- Loyal Remix

11. Aloe Blacc- The Man

12. PTAF- Boss Ass Bitch

13. Mariah Carey- You're Mine (Eternal)

14. Latoya Luckett- Don't Make Me Wait

15. Celeste Buckingham- Run, Run, Run

16. August Alsina- Numb Remix

17. Hologram Kizzie feat ProbCause- NerdLove

18. Zero Dezire- It's My Birthday Remix

19. Christina Perri- I Dont Wanna Break

20. Chet Faker- No Diggity

21. Robert Glasper Experiment feat Macy Grey and Jean Grae- I Don't Even Care

22. Broken Bells- After The Disco

23. Barcelona- Background

24. Sam Smith- Money On My Mind

25. Dawn Richard- Levitate

Well, that's a pretty good catch up for you guys! 

There...

Now before I go, are there any questions other than why do I think my opinion is relevant and anybody cares? Cuz we've been over that, pay attention people

Ok. Until next time! 

- K.J. Dominick's

Decisions

Today marks the day I officially decide to turn my back and the past and look only onward ho ( towards the future for those who aren't oldish and never get my references)

This means I will stop thinking of this situation with my Ex as a break, and realize that it is a break up. 

I feel exhausted from mental abuse all week, everyday, and have been stewing it over and over again on repeat. 

I now know that this will never be repaired, he has bought tickets to move off Island with our Dog, without even consulting me. 

Those actions alone define our relationship right now, and the only thing in my life that is 100% stress is communication with him! which is basically narrowed down to short one word answers and questions involving the Dog, speaking volumes with our silence...

I needed this wake up call, because despite everything I was under the hopeful but desperate impression that we would try and work it out. Let me rephrase that- that he would make some sort of an effort, even the smallest of gestures that he still has a heart and doesn't think of me as the scum on the bottom of his shoe. We are after all married. 

I got married for a reason, not just an opportunity. I am realizing now that he was the opposite of me as far as our relationship changed. I was always a temporary experience to add to his life. Another story to tell, another reason to wallow in his own self pity. One minute he talks about how much he loves me, the next he is taking insanely and grossly inappropriate stabs at me.

One minute he wants to meet up, then he switches and acts so cruel that I don't even want to anymore  when he finally decides he is In a "good enough" place to have our first adult conversation since it all went down.  

He constantly refers to " the man he married" as if I have changed that drastically in the 8 years we have been together. I will not deny that we both changed, at points very drastically and at points in small ways. I was always there for him when he went through something. 

Not to say he wasn't there for me. He was good to me, even though he was an asshole and that eventually just got old. 

I also got old to him, and it was clear. 

We started fighting over the smallest of things, but under those things were underlying tones of love gone in the wrong direction. 

When you are married, fighting over what Genre to pass out to on Netflix is so much more than what it appears to be on the surface. 

He HATES most things I love, or at least grew to hate them with little to no exposure to them.

Sarah Silverman- He never saw her do more than the Roasts on Comedy Central and has a deep hatred for her which grows as my enthusiasm increases. 

Any Hip-Hop- when we met he kept an open mind and always gave me props with my exquisite taste in Music but then soon decided my recommendations weren't of interest to him anymore.

There are a lot of things that I never really cared for in the first place, but I always did my best to not complain or throw a fit when I didn't get my way. We can't have 2 grown men who are trying to work on a rapidly dying love story both acting like big fat ugly stupid ridiculous babies, now can we? 

Apparently we can as I have discovered as of recent we both act like babies, jerks and fuck with each other non stop like it's a science experiment.

I am convinced my ex and the roommate conspired against me for months, maybe even longer.

Why they decided to turn on me doesn't add up, yes they thought certain things about me for many reasons, all of which were incredibly awful and A  Rumour.

He gave up on me the minute I wasn't putting up with his dictatorship, I mean contribution to our relationship. 

I have been holding on because I didn't want this to end. I didn't get married to get divorced, especially when it's based on a rumor, there is no closure and I'm not even allowed to plead my case.

I truly believe with counseling this can be fixed, and have expressed that time and time again. And I am willing to do anything to make it work, but have just grown weary of trying so hard and being shot down. 

What really hurts is how I always took care of him, and carried the slack when I had to. There were years of sexual rejection, I never had a date EVER, I put up with his drug abuse and never made him feel bad about himself, and he turned right around and crushed me- I'm recovering and I wish I didn't have to give him that power but he did. 

And he abandoned me and turned his back on me. 

Till death do us part? Or just when it's convenient? 

And that speaks volumes about his character. 

But I'm not here to point out his flaws, that is not my concern anymore. 

My reasoning for venting is that after a solid week of mind fuckery at myself and the dogs expense and being blamed for everything ( yet again, 100% unable to even defend myself) he apologized for one small occurrence followed by the fact that he is moving with the dog, no matter how I feel about it and that it is truly over.

I just never saw this coming. Ever. 

I mean, we were obviously going through a bad phase when the shit hit the fan but we were always able to bounce back. 

This time, it was written that our time was over, and maybe it was for the best.

I am forced to blame noone but myself from here on out.

But, I am cutting off all communication except for emergencies and I will be stress free on that account. 

Hopefully...

Signing out, 

K.J. Dominick's

Ugh...

Well, I was cursed with bizarre flu like symptoms this week, and blessed with many a thing.

It's been gross and rainy, which always affects my mood and usually my health. 

And my perception of certain realities. 

That's ok, I can admit- who am I to judge?

What am I even talking about? 

I ain't really talkin about nothin, I'm just bussin-Rapsody "Betty Shabazz" 

She goes off on that song, oh lord. 

Anyways, been a weird drug fueled ( over the counter, we r talking DayQuil) couple of days and sometimes I am ready to stab that fucking Elephant next to me!!!

I own the night!

Don't forget it. 

Again, what am I talking about? 

Why are you still reading?  

Oh, you're not? Ok, I'll wait...

All the time in the world buddy. Compadre. 

Ok. 

So as I was saying, I'm tripping on cold medicine and having a strange crazy range of emotions that last for about 7 minutes at a time. 

Love my crazy, love it. Think ill name it.

Susan- my crazy. 

I know, this will all be edited out, so it's ok if I keep going.

Like Random House would ever publish this nonsensensical dribble?!?

I also probably shouldn't drink and take NyQuil but who doesn't? I mean, really...

I'm here to reveal things, and I will. All over your face! Lol

Lol. Can you even LOL in a BlogOir? Oh, i made it up so who cares ( insert copyright here)

So, all is a bit hazy, but good.

Seeing my baby ( the dog, not the ex husband) a lot more, and working on the extent of our civility.

So far, basically the same roller coaster it has been for me.

That's ok, I can just focus on me, the next stage, turn off this depressing ass music and get crazy?!?

Forward Flash to like 6 hours later...

My roommate came home and went to bed immediately so I basically had to fend for myself. 

I drank a bunch if Heineken, I had a very strange textversation with the Ex and agreed to take the dog on Saturday so he can go to some party and ended us us saying we still love each other. 

It was weird. 

I'm not gonna lie, it was nice to hear. 

He doesn't usually, well, WE don't often say very nice things to each other, but at least we aren't being mean and cruel anymore.

I only ever did that because I was going crazy and had an empty void even though it seemed I had everything. 

Don't it always seem to go, you don't know what you got till it's gone. 

Just wish I didn't put up with so much from him, as those very reasons are why I was asked to leave and chose to ( we are gonna stick with that)

Anyways, forgive the out of order posting, just putting all my blogs up, all the unfinished Drafts.

They are doing no good sitting in my box ( baa- Dum- Ching!) 

Enjoy my archives, totally out of order

Love,

K.J. Dominick's 

Today

Today- today was a really fucking strange day in my head, not so much in life. I had to work, so I got up mad early cuz I'm weird and like to be wide awake before I go to work even though I am contradicting it by depriving myself of precious sleep time. Precious, like that black girl "FROM AMERICAN HORROR STORY, OK?!? Gosh! 

Precious. 

God rest her souls...

So, today started out with photos of packages Psalm One is sending me, and that was mad dope.

I also found out that the ONE Jean Grae CD is no longer available to buy on her Bandcamp and I will not own Jeannie EP (in the right way). Bitch woulda gotten my money if she waited. It's been out like 2 weeks! 

Then, work was good, but a lot of almost sales and running around like a monkey. 

I like being a high fashion monkey.

It was good, I spent most of the day broke but fed.

That's really all one can ask for. 

I have a home, a job and life Is finally looking better as far as my positivity levels go

Still working on the whole EX situation, and was particularly hurt to see one of my old friends that I know he likes sitting at my old table when I go pick up my Dog.

It's probably nothing, and I hope they both wrap it up if I go with my gut, but hey, if you gotta move on THAT way, so be it. 

For myself, it's an internal battle and I am nowhere near sleeping with someone else. 

I have no idea where he's at on that front, I can only go off actions and rumors ( hey, I was dumped for the he said she said, I lost a lot of friends because of the he said she said, and I'm in this current state of rebuilding and am still ok with using the he said she motherfucking said)

Came home, had a great talk with my roommate ( I love her)

And now I'm gonna watch some more tv and finish this Heineken until I pass out...

Today was so precious!

-K.J. Dominick's 

Distance...

Hi, 

Guys out there, I totally missed you! Especially that ass! 

I've been busy and crazy and hectic and, well, K.J. So, naturally I neglected my BlogOir.

Shame. 

Shame...

It's ok though, I'm a try my best to be back. 

Ok, well, I've learned so much lately about self as well as other worldly problems.

As if self is a worldly problem...

I'm ridiculous! 

Well, been working my new job as a Mad Hatter, with some sense. 

Some

And I LOVE it!

The staff is awesome, as Is the product and Company in general, and I highly recommend them. 

I like to think I fit in there perfectly...

But life has been crazy and hectic and filled with surprises and disappointments and all that Jazz! 

Umm, the drama involves sleeping in on my first day opening the store alone, rushing my best friend and roommate to to E.R., my Dog running away and adjusting to my new residence and Job. 

All that, oh, and ALMOST getting paid on time... Not anyone's fault but my own...

So since we spoke last, I moved, work full time and have a much better custody situation. 

I've repaired (and ruined) friendships and am doing my best to move on and stay positive. 

Catching up on my programs, music, reading... Blah blah blah...

So far, so good. 

This is going to be a short update just to keep you guys posted. 

Look forward to more soon! 

Kisses! 

Oh, and cop this! Amazing EP!!!

-K.J. Dominick's 

Psalm One Hug Life Album Review ( official release 02/11/2014)

Ooh... Ok. This is what Psalm decided to bring to the table, to further evolve her sound and hopefully appeal to other groups than just Hip-Hop heads and the occasional Hipster that wanders into her show but falls in love. No, I am NOT calling her "Hipster Rap" at all, her longevity alone proves she isn't just another fad ( like J.J.) 

Psalm One is on some next shit and definitely stands out from the crowd. 

Nicki Minaj she is NOT, and thank god, cuz one is more than enough. 

Psalm is about to release her debut album off of Bonafyde Media, Hug Life, which has taken my iPod by storm. It knows me by now, and won't even let me pause her rhymes for a second or even change the Playlist! It knows I will eat, sleep and breathe this Album. It's that good. Let me break it down and tell you why. And how this will give you a new perspective similair to the day after taking Shrooms or LSD but without any comedown or headaches. 

She came back insanely HARD on this album, and not just with her incredible roster of different producers, both established and up coming, as well as artists that are both impressive ( and their verses don't let you down, while they struggle to keep up with Psalm who has never sounded more at home and comfortable in her own Kingdom)

She brings out incredible guests like Bahamadia, Tanya Morgan, ProbCause, and others with production credits ranging from Maker, Flosstradamus, Optiks, Hood Internet, Ill-Esha, Doomtree, J-Zone, Brandon Allday and many more. 

That right there is the perfect mix to me, and they both made me extremely excited to hear her collaborations with said artists and producers. Just by hearing that particular line up and all of her recent ventures like Free Hugs EP, I knew that this album was gonna be something Epic and that is one of the best ways to describe it. 

Her lyrics and the beats are on point, and definitely a different route for her but a great two-step in the right direction. It's creative, it's hood, it remains sensitive and real, it's filled to the brim of references that dare you to get them ( yeah, she's that clever), it takes Juke to a whole new level and perfectly blends trends of the Electronica and Indie-Tronica Genres with hard Hip-Hop. Most of the songs change and evolve midway through into something entirely different. And although I usually shuffle my playlists, no matter what order this album is played in it comes off as a solid and cohesive classic effort from her mind and soul. 

She has mastered the art of staying light hearted while in beast mode, and it's what makes her shine the most. The fact that no matter her success, she is speaking the truth as she reflects on everyday life, love gone wrong all the while dropping creative metaphors with a cadence never before heard before. She remains humble while bragging, and that is an art. One that never sits patiently on the side lines of Hip-Hop, or even as a poet for that matter. And on top of all that, she has strong opinions, but isn't over the top with them and trying to shove them down your throat. I mean, I'm doing my best to stay biased while I write this, but it's hard. She makes it difficult to not love her. Even when I know all the lyrics to her music I still find different stand out lines with each listen and it's a perfect balance of hot ass records period that you can't help but get down to, and songs that have the same effect as my favorite chill pill. Even if you are just sitting in public alone and can't stop nodding your head, don't worry, you are now rocking with the best! 

Let me break it down, track by track for you:

1. Grabbing Necks Produced by Brandon Allday

Album opener, Psalm on a stripped down and grimey beat, beginning with the screwed  and almost chopped line " I love having sex but I'd rather get some head"... Psalm is feeling a bit frisky these days, seems Veganism brought out many different sides of her! Then she spits her wisdom as the beat creeps up and sets the standard for the tracks that are about to win you over to the Psalm side. I really want to give each song a rating, but it would come off as all 5 out of 5 and become extremely redundant...

2. NerdLove Featuring ProbCause Produced by Drew Mantia

Track 2, which is a fantastic reworking of of a Jodeci sample laden song from her amazing Free Hugs EP which was really a prelude to Hug Life, and a great one at that. She slowed it down with heavy drums that compliment her sing rap flow on this one, and then once she hands the mic over to ProbCause the full beat kicks in which is great, and ProbCause drops a mean verse. Then Psalm takes her spin on the new beat, and turns her underground classic original song into a multiple-layerd and equally sexy song about getting freaky (Freak N' You, baby)

The beat is one Kanye would play, remember his awesome early career before the fame when he was hungry and probably would have  throw himself off a Balcony for letting this part of him go! Which is my fancy way for saying this is sick, and one of my favorites and Kanye is a sell out. 

3. A New Phaze Featuring Tanya Morgan and Fluffy Produced by Hood Internet

This is another reworking of one of her previous songs, which keeps the flavor of the original and adds a whole new take on it. It does slightly keep the sample and most of her best verse on that track, but then hands the Reigns over to Tanya Morgan for a little while, which is a collaboration from my dreams! Tanya Morgan drop a fantastic set of verses, and it's one of their best features they ever done to date. They are two of my favorite artists ( even though Tanya Morgan is a group comprised of 2 Emcees and a Dj/Producer so I guess it's more than 2) then Fluffy takes the hook and delivers a hot ass old school Kelis flavored flow as Hood Internet provides them with an Homage to Psalm's "Through a Phaze" record and throws in a Mystery Flavored Dum-Dum to spice up the sound and flip the script on her. She ain't scared, and tackles it. And It works, but this being the first single off Hug Life, we already knew that for quite some time now! Thank god she kept the best parts of the song, mentioning Janis Joplin in her IPod, and spits the excellent "Through A Phase" lyrics to finish the song and give it a happy ending! Mad shouts to the many producers who made this possible. Brought to you in part by...

4. Take The Plunge Produced by Wes P.

She starts this track out by saying " what about the adventure though? You're gonna wake up everyday and do the same shit?"- then, she rides the Trap influenced beat like a Skateboard ( Surf board in a Bathtub- thanks Beyonce). This song is filled with mad quotables, and the beat bangs Chicago style and gives her plenty of freedom to spread her Angel Wings far enough to brush her shoulders off and do a hair flip. Basically, she comes into this sexy ass beat, snaps and spazzes the fuck out, vomitting her words all over this sick ass beat and bounces. I know she was proud as hell when she left the studio after this shit. This is some Nick Cannon Drumline snap at your opponents and drop your drumsticks in their face ( in her case the mic that is probably still smoking) and walk away. Plus to me, there is a particular line that I swear she is referencing me. I always think that, but I do call her a Genius a lot. Even if she wasn't, to me she was. Lol.mits the little things that get us through life. 

5. Another Voyeur Produced by Lazerbeak of Doomtree

This is part two to her Voyeur song, which I was convinced was about me the first time I heard the original too! But then I realized it was just an insanely sexy song that made me want to strip and Juke one day and just chill and walk to the words with my Headphones. "Up in the place, I see you getting down. I just can't help but look at you", that's the core of the song (s) and this one is almost the gorgeous heartbroken aftermath of its predecessor. She says it sounds stalker-ish, but she doesn't mean it that way, we've all been there, I call it infatuation. And some people were born to be stared at, and revel in it. This is a song for them, and for those that can't help but stare. 

6. Juke Me Again Featuring Bahamadia & Open Mike Eagle Produced by Maker

Juke me was one of her singles, and a hot song but not on my list of all time favorites by her. However, this remix changes every thing for me. I'm doing my best not to call them remixes, they are entirely different songs that have similair parts to them. Regardless, they have made me over think my original evaluation of the first one, and I can't even stress how happy I am Bahamadia is on a Psalm record. I've always wanted a Jean Grae collab or a Rapsody, or even a Rah Digga collab with Psalm, but realize their styles are completely different and that's probably never going to happen. ( it still might tho, and they are all powerful and adaptable queens who can figure it out, damnit) but, Bahamadia was the perfect choice. It's almost an un recognizable Bahamadia, but that's good! What we are left with is pure gold, and Psalm seems overly confident and at home over this new beat and her newfound bragging rights from all of her hard work that led to this collaboration. This is one of my favorite songs on the record.

7. Abe Froman Produced by Maker

Here is a dedication to The Sausage King Of Chicago, Abe Froman. 

Kind of. 

The beat is a sick Nintendo influenced uptempo banger, and she rides it effortlessly over Makers "challenge" to her skills. This is her proving she is the queen! Bow down, bitches! 

There isn't much else to say, on your headphones she sounds fantastic and yet again, that beat is amazing! Love it and it gives her another chance to showcase her double time rap skills, and she drops them out of nowhere just it throw the listener off. Another "oh shit, she is NICE with it", even over some techno juke mashup beat courtesy of Maker! Thanks Psalm, this one is just dope as hell.

8. So Silly Produced by Young Josh of Flosstradamus

Here we have a laid out, slower paced jam that almost sounds like a marriage between Santogold, The Pixies and south side Trap Jawns. Plus, the message is awesome. It's basically belittling the other chick with confidence, from the point of view of the Homewrecker, even though as you will notice the man catches no slack for being a player and playing with these women's emotions. Just saying. She basically writes him off as " Silly". It's a great stand to take. And the Hook anonymously performed is a screwed and kind of chopped , line which not only calls out her Government name, but also Is just pure awesomeness. I really like this track, it's hot, it's lonely, it's chill all the while being intensely discreet. 

Psalm shows a tad of her vulnerable side on this one, and it works very well. The emotional groth she has achieved since her first recordings is astounding, but I'd expect nothing less. 

9. Sex Is A Weapon Featuring Ill-Esha & Fluffy Produced by Ill-Esha

Banging beats, dope empowering raps, Psalm is definitely on fire over this beat. This song is a Banger, and would fit nicely on the radio ( well, at least all my Playlists and Mixtapes)

Ill-Esha and Fluffy handle the catchy ass hook, and Psalm does her thang all over that beat. Shit, she might as well have left $200 on the night stand when she was done with that beat! She made it her bitch! And she had such a good time with it the night before, she gave it what is was worth

10. The Responsibility Produced by J-Zone

J-Zone makes sick beats and Psalm made a great choice of beats. This one sounds like an old school Nas beat and flow and she rips it apart. She gobbles this beat, al, about The Ganja Smoke and it's one of the few tracks that is extremely sample heavy, mainly mixing in quotes to enhance the message and beat. Nas style, baby. 

11. Mike Bivens Produced by Young Josh of Flosstradamus

An Homage to former Bell Biv Devoe and New Edition crooner? 

Not exactly sure where they were going with that name, but the beat bangs ( hello, it's Flosstradamus). They probably named it after him due to the copious amounts of references to him and his career. 

" jamming on me, like a Candy Girl, and if it isn't live, then wear your panties girl. Can you stand the rain. I kind of like the drizzling. I might just Poison em, Michael Bivens"... 

The scratching on the joint is reminiscent of a Primo production, and she samples herself at one point right after she spit the same line- dope. I'm trying to think of another rapper that sample words they said earlier in the same song... Psalm is the only one that comes to mind. 

" I'd rather go out on a limb, then on a trend"... 

That line alone sums up her creativity, originality as she tackles whatever obstacles she is faced with! 

12. Free Hug Life Produced by Optiks

The beat is like floating with the Snuggle Fabric Softener bear, then poking the Pillsbury Dough Boy as you put out an "L" and sit back. Then, the first thing you think is the wonderfully abstract words she drops throughout this dreamy song. Then, you are hit with a Phil Spektor wall of sound and the song closes off on all the right notes. This shit is meant for long walks, and chill thoughts. It's simple, gorgeous and straight to the point. 

13. What A Movie Produced by GodDog and POS of Doomtree 

This shit sounds like some awesome late nineties trip hop, with her snarling rasp coming through and the result is mad sexy! The beat is on point, bass heavy, slow, with the occasional sample and sick. She rides this beat like old school Psalm would. It's great, filled with nice one liners, and as always she breaks out that sick double time flow when she is rapping over a nice slow but dirty beat. Another sexy chill song. I also like hearing her say "I love you" at the end, while talking about the film she wants to make instead of a Porno is a thriller. This track is nice, maybe not the first one I'd play as an intro to the CD ( depending on who I trying to impress) but definitely one I'll start the shuffled playlist off with for my own personal situation. 

14. Another Paranoid Lover Feat Diggs Duke Produced by Diggs Duke

Nice. This one starts with a sick bass line, a minimalist beat and her rapid fire delivery right off the bat. Then, she has a chorus of soul background sounds hit you as the chorus. It's gorgeous, the beat stutters, it builds and builds to whole new plateaus as she goes on. And Diggs Duke is mad nice with it, has a great voice and very intricate beats. A great way to end the album. 

There may or may not be a bonus track- to me there are 2.

We will just have to wait for the finished album to come out before.

If they aren't on it, go download Open Relationship featuring R.A. The Rugged Man and Funky Junkie By Ray Elementary produced by Mulatto Patriot...

Plus, Mulatto Patriot is a great producer, and together him and Psalm make magic. 

Another one from Chicago to look out for! 

http://bonafydemedia.com/hologram-kizzie-hug-life-lp-21114/

So Hug Life- 

Incredible. If you haven't gathered that by now. 

I live it, have listened to it non stop since she gave me permission to review it. 

And thank god, because it have me an incredible album right when I needed it, inspiration to write yet another blog about her and one more way to spread the word about my favorite Psalm One. 

If I wrote for The Source, after I killed myself, I would give it 5 mics hands down. 

Too bad there aren't enough of us super fans spreading the word! (Hint, hint) 

How else do you think things that are underground blow up and gain a cult following? 

Word of mouth, and I ain't talking Ludacris. 

Hug Life and the accompanying Hoodie is here to take you by storm, all you gotta do is listen and let the words melt you. 

In a world of Hip-Hop that gets progressively more mainstream each year and pointless, she is a bowl of the best dank you've ever burned. Really, no matter what music you listen to, she is amazing and something you've never heard before, even if you've listened to her other stuff before. This is different. This is a rare gem that is waiting for you to call it the best album you've heard in a long time! 

I love you, Psalm! Thank you from the very bottom of my Headphones for yet another amazing journey.

Hug Life will be officially released by Bonafyde Media on 02/11/2014 and available everywhere that's worth going. Shit, look below. One and all of those links will help you get it, and it strongly recommend you buy the fly ass Hoodies too. 

Psalm One aka Hologram Kizzie

Bonafyde Media

First Lady of Rhymesayers 

Charm Lab/Rhymeschool Founder

Label Web: http://rhymesayers.com/psalmone

Artist Web: http://regularanddope.com

Music: http://regularblackgirl.com

Psalm One a.k.a. Hologram Kizzie Is Better Than You Are...

Psalm One has been probably the most influential rapper in my long lived love of all things Hip-Hop ( especially Female Rappers) and music in general. While most people claim to "love music" they never completely understand how much music means to people like myself. We are not just fans, we move to music, think to music and it dictates and helps us express emotions that we sometimes didn't even know we were allowed to. I drink music in my morning coffee, take my morning music chill pill and let the sun melt my worries (if anyone knows the secret to actually getting that last part, please let me know. That one was a bit much, Kyle). We collect music and are open to any and everything that speaks to us through our ever evolving self. We are the headphones to life's Boombox...

We live it. Can't help it, even if we tried. 

Then, you stumble across an artist who gets way more than that obsession, but gives you an entire new perspective and appreciation for music. It's like being born again, and it's cheesy but there are some artists that have been with me more than best friends, that have never let me down. That release a surprise verse out of nowhere and change your whole thought process just when you need it the most. They can take the words right out of your brain all the while implanting like minded thoughts. 

Psalm One has been one of these artist for me for many many years. 

For many many reasons. 

Basically, she is a consistent Artist that I have had the utmost respect for both Lyrically and Personally throughout her Career, and she also 100 things more than that to me. I know most of my Readers (thanks!) know of her because I am borderline obsessed with her ever evolving creativity (why you so obsessed with me?- wait, that's Mariah, completely different) and post and promote her to the point of being obnoxious, but that's because I know what the fuck I'm talking about and real recognizes real ( cliched catchphrases that make me sound like I'm trying to be more "Hood" or " Urban", as Sam Goody and Blockbuster Music used to refer to it because that makes white people feel more alright with their "political correctness"). Psalmie is a phenomenon and an extremely underrated addition to the direction  of Hip-Hop and Pop Culture overall which has finally embraced Hip-Hop as more than just a fad that will phase, and we will all go back to Country and Bubble Gum Pop, and a little soul music after hours (only)...

Now don't get me wrong, she is by far not the ONLY addition to Indie Hip-Hop that I appreciate wholeheartedly, or Mainstream Hip-Hop for that matter. She is just Luscious, rocks the crowd and makes classics ( to me) that NEVER get old no matter what chapter of life I am in at the current moment. Her words speak to me and I feel her thoughts as they flow out her mouth so effortlessly. I'll get off her Proverbial Dick, but I just have pay respect while I make you realize and understand why I feel about this way in her particular. 

I first heard of Psalm One on the streets ( can't even remember how, but I was compelled to find her album and literally walked to every CD store in Chicago that might possibly have her album) and eventually found it at Gramaphone Records. Threw that shit in my DiscMan and fell in love. It was a whole different kind of lyrical genre less music that I had never found in any form of music before. Like I said, I fell in love. She had a show a week or so later, and I got all cute with my bleach blonde faux-hawk (I know) and oversized leather jacket and took my ass over to the Abbey Pub. Saw her perform, and I was instantly inspired. I got nervous, knowing I had to pay respect. She was working her own merch booth, which always made me respect an artist even more. She had her posse, I did not. I walked right up to her, only knowing her lyrics after her set and said something like" I fucking love your album. You have no idea how much it means to me and has changed my..." She stopped me and said thank you with pure love and hugged me and kissed my cheek. Then, she humbly signed my CD. 

I have met many "celebrities" that I respected and have their autographs, but this was different. This was real. Nobody paid her to show me the same love back. She did it on her own volition, and was flattered. I was drunk (go figure) so it probably didn't go down as smoothly and fairy tale like as I remember, but I am pretty slick cat so maybe it did. Those were the days when I remembered my "limit". Those days didn't last very long as I always preferred herbology over dranky drank drank. 

Regardless, the love I received was humble and respectful, and she gained a fan for life ( all up and coming artists, take note). 

Then I realized she had a studio right next to where I was working in Wicker Park area, Chicago, Illinois.

Yup, another great from Chicago! 

And not to mention she is an educated former Chemist who spends her scarce free time doing amazing Charity and Community Outreach work for the neighborhoods in Chicago. 

Psalm One actually does do it for the kids and care about the homeless! 

And she has always worked with so many different producers and artists and created an extremely diverse portfolio for herself. I mean, The First Lady Of Rhymesayers is a pretty big deal! 

And, wait. She's  right down the street from me?

 A little too convenient, our twist of fate of being neighbors. 

Also, like I promise I'm not stalking you and I'm not creepy, we can call this coincidence.

What's that paper? A Restraining Ord- oh! Ok, then, um, I'm a big fan Hug Life Bitch ( hugs and runs).

That never happened, nor was it ever an actual concerned that I am aware of for her. Lol.

 Like, she would walk past everyday and we'd bump into each other and she was just mad cool. She was so chill, just like her music. 

Real recognizes real. 

I wish I could have made it to all her shows, but life happens, so I only made it to most of them. 

Also, like most Hip-Hop showcases to, they save the best for last but wouldn't tell you exactly when the only performer you wanted to see on the entire roster was going on stage. Not even a ballpark figure, not even a guesstimate. So u show up early cuz if you miss them it's a devastating waste of money, even though you usually end up really liking the other artists as well. And sometimes, it's as simple as I cannot stay out until 3 a.m. AGAIN! 

But, there Psalm would be, somewhere in the crowd running around dancing, or straight up chilling selling her own merchandise and signing shit for people like me. Making people she knows wait in lines to talk to her ( fucking diva) ( she's totally not a diva). 

But, she always gave me a show before she went on, and always went out of her way to say hi! 

And no matter how drunk I was all front row at her shows getting the fuck down, she was polite and humble. I like to think I wasn't as annoying as I think I was too. 

I like to think everything in my past is distorted reality and a blurred vision, but it's not and that's another completely irrelevant topic. 

Oh my god, and I made her sign everything! Lol.

That girl has carpal tunnel because of me! 

Sometimes, no matter what prestigious label you are signed to you still sell your own Merch. 

Ain't no shame, it solidifies our love and respect when an artist is beyond mad cool and inspires us to buy more, usually just based on their presence. 

They are real people, guys! 

Psalm knows how I feel, and has shown me all the love back. 

From all of her projects and various names, groups and whatnot it is literally impossible for me to shuffle her discography and say that I hate or don't like a single song! I feel that strongly about no other artist, and that is no lie. True, there are songs I prefer, but I don't skip. There is no need, even and some times especially on her mixtape tracks and wide range of skills. 

I consider her a friend, and have made it incredibly clear that I don't mean to seem obsessed but I'm completely infatuated with  and by her. 

She loves it! 

I eagerly anticipate more to come, but have done my best to express how much what has already been released means to me. 

And I put her on as a test.

Don't tell me you love Hip-Hop and not bob your head to any of her tracks. 

And don't get it fooled, she has shit that baffles me for lack of mainstream success! 

When I hear her new projects, I am always like " this is the one, this shit gone be all over the radio".

It's not, that doesn't mean it isn't incredible. Usually it means quite the opposite. 

Who cares? As long as she's good, happy and remains not only making quality music, but continues all of her community outreach and educational work, then I know for a fact she is fulfilled. 

And I know for a fact I will be her fan for life.

And I know for a fact, if we even have a conversation, I will force you to listen to her. 

Nacrobats

Bio:Chemistry 2

Bio Chemistry 2: Esters and Essays

Get In the Van Series

Personal Surplus EP

The Death Of A Frequent Flyer

Woman At Work Series

Child Support (ASCAP/America Scores)

#FREEHUGS

And soon to change my world upside down is

#HUGLIFE

These albums are and will always be one ginormous playlist that will be the shuffling soundtrack to my soul. 

Learn you something! 

To Psalm One- thanks! You are simply the shit! 

http://regularblackgirl.com

Love, 

K.J. Dominick's

Sommore Pics... Yeah, they call me crazy, like Slim Shady dropping a Baby on a Daisy...

Everybody- get Random! 

Love, 

K.J. Dominick's 

Someone's Got A Case Of The Mondays... (Annoying Loud High Pitched Voices)

Good Morning! 

Hope my Midwestern friends are ok, not too cold. 

I feel y'all. It's even cold here! 

In fucking Hawaii, I'm all bundled up and up really super duper early because I ended up with a lot of sleep due to pure exhaustion yesterday. 

The job grind is going really well, and had a great discussion with one of my roomies last night. 

It was just nice to hear her voice (she is obviously out of town) (well, it wasn't that obvious until I said it)

And I miss her. 

We chatted about my progress as an ever evolving human, toe nail fungus, friends vs acquaintances, how to properly vomit in public, constant running noses etc... ( we didn't talk about any of those things, but I figured you'd enjoy that better). 

So, this morning I am patiently waiting to hear from the Job I want so badly! 

I just need that email to come through, and why wouldn't you hire me?

Once it does, I have a skype second interview with the Owner. 

I'm so ready, bring it! 

Then, errands and relaxation once I have successfully nailed my opportunity. 

Or, I'll just cry if nothing happens. Lol. 

It does not help my situation that I received the lovely notice that my phone has been suspended due to non-payment. Shit, hire me and I'll work it off! 

Oh life, how you challenge us to better ourselves... Every day.

Life must be tired too, cuz that's a full time job to add obstacles to EVERYONE on a daily basis!

Think about it, I only complicate a few peoples life on a daily basis, not the whole world.

I haven't even met the whole world (yet) nor do I have time to add little obstacles in my foot prints. 

That's what I should rename my blog to- Obstacles in My Foot Prints...

I think I've read all the books I have, so I'm essentially writing one myself. Just not a good one. 

I don't believe in transitions, except for those days when I'm totally on point and my BlogOir actually makes sense instead of just random thoughts thrown together. 

That's how I do! And what?

I get to see my Doggy today and go grocery shopping! 

I have the opportunity to see my ex, as I have to go to my old apartment (cue Barenaked Ladies live album)... I will think about it all day, if I want to or not. 

If I'm ready, the thing is I'm finally feeling good about myself, and if can't let anything break that. 

I'm not saying that would necessarily happen, but it is a very possible outcome.

Editors note: K.J. Physically tore out pages of this blog against my knowledge and disposed of them.

They discussed such important issues such as Marriage, Love, and Divorce, Birth, Aids, Liquid Bandages, Teeth Whitening Kits, How To Get The Job Painting Lines On The Highway, and his weird little obsessions (talking and rapping to himself in public, the art of his strut, and how to walk into a room like you were born there) 

He asked me kindly (he was a fucking asshole) to leave this out for another BlogOir Entry, but I'm his Editor and I'll do what I want. 

He said ALL of that about your Mama! And what? 

K.J.s note: Editor- fuck you. I never said any of that. You think adding lies to my BlogOir will help sales? 

Are we even selling this? Why do you even work for me ( don't forget you work for ME) 

And like I really need you to expose my truthiness and/or spread lies about me and join that Player Haters Club. 

I don't have an Editor. 

I am officially fighting with myself.

In public. Again. 

Isn't that a disease of some sort? Fuck, like I need another disorder.

I shouldn't even use the D word (disorder) cuz I prefer adorably unique as a term instead, it's got a positive little spin on it, doesn't it? 

Ok, it's time for me get pretty and go run the world again...

 See ya a little later.

Dear Editor, please include this as an actual entry. 

I know I hid it's meaning behind nothingness, but I'm distracted so I feel my readers will be too.

Editors note: K.J.- we need to have a conference call about this entry.

Like, immediately, if not, sooner. 

Publishing anyways, 

Fuck my Editor

K.J. Dominick's signing out

Omg... Is that vomit?